It's another concluding end of the month, many people celebrating for their end of the month salaries but some of them cursing (w/c I really like...) their bills, insurance and tax payments for this month and guess what... I have no more savings left in my wallet and it hungers for more cash !!! (well... as i have mentioned earlier in my previous posts, money! hard to achieve but easily spent...) and welcome back MTG Deck... Due to insisted public demand, I have returned in making MTG decks to bash and beat other competitive decks that shows some nice themes out of their cards, but sadly i'm not that really competitive and i ususally refuse to join tourneys coz' it's just a simple hobby to me...
Anyway, so far i promised myself that at the end of this month, i will never make unnecessary expenses due of radiant aura of the leo's bad luck for money and when i see the face of any peso bill, i always see papi jeff's face( Damn ! papi jeff's face haunts my cash >_< ) and everyday, there's always buggin' my mind and the council of 13 personas are going haywire coz' of confrontations about bad lucks (e.g. zipper of my fave bag has broken, i lost a forest card, "down-the-drain" grades on my quizzes and exams last prelim & midterm about my CT&T subject)
I remembered One thing about today, it was a great day today even i paid my whole savings on JM and got hungry for a whole day, my eyes were enticely solved for what i have seen and stared at this day coz' of the HRM week and digged for some shows that they have presented at this day (as papi jeff's catchphrase, "DELISHCIOUS") you know as for me, I have no such interest of making "CHIPSIES" coz' as i mentioned some of it to master gaius and to great austin:
THIRTEEN COMMANDMENTS OF Dr. J.P. Bisana about "Women"
1. Wala talaga akong magustuhan o makitang babae na matino at isa pa, may kinabukasan ang mga yan...
ayokong masiraan sila ng ulo at mabaliw pagdating sa pagkatao ko...
2. Hayaan mo lang yang mga babaeng yan na gawin ang gusto nila sa mga susong bakulaw na BF nila, sa bandang huli magsisisi din yan kung bakit nagkaroon pa sila ng Mukhang Basurero at Mukhang dispatcher ng jeep ang magiging mga anak nila
3. Medyo Nauubos na ang populasyon ng mga lalake sa mundo, lalo na yung mga guwapo at matitino ang ugali,
bahala na lang silang maghanap ng talagang jackpot na katulad natin...
4. Pag naging tunay na lalake na si Markovs, Talagang maghahanap na ko ng pakakasalan ko...
5. Ang ibig sabihin ng Babae para sa'kin??? masahol pa sa holdaper, di' lang puso't pagkalalake mo ang nanakawin yan, siguradong laspag lagi ang pera mo kasi di' mo matitiis na hindi sya gumastos para sa sarili nya...
6. Matindi ang lasong dinudulot ng babae sa isipan ng isang lalake, tignan mo si boogie...
7. Karamihan ng imahe ng mga babae ay anghel, DEMONYO ako eh...
8. Sa tagal ko nang nag-aaral ng sikolohiya, natutunan ko na karamihan na maraming kaso ng pagkabaliw ay mga babae, kaya mag-ingat sa mga babaeng kakilala nyo... (better safe than sorry ! ! !)
9. Magaling na artista ang mga babae, ang alam mo bestfriend ka niya pero the next time na malalaman mo eto' ang sasabihin sa'yo "Sino ka???"
10. Babae... hindi madaling gawaan at hindi nadadaaan sa dahilan, pero sila ang numero unong valedictorian pagdating sa paggawa ng sari-saring dahilan...
11. ano alam nila sa panahon natin ngayon? mag-pose, magre-touch lagi, pumorma ng nagpapa-highblood sa mga pari, mag-text lagi, magpaseksi kahit Balyena ang bil-bil, magpakakikay lagi, mamili ng mamili gamit ang pera ni mister, magpa-salon at papedicure lagi, etc. (Bwisit !!! ayoko pa naman sa maseselan ang dating ng ugali !!!)
12. ang pagkakaalam ko, ang mga babae ang pinakamaingay at pinakamakulit na nilalang sa mundo... mas makulit pa sa langaw at "fungi" at mas maingay pa sa pinagsama-samang live concert ng mga heavy-metal rockbands. pag nagsimula nang magtatalak yan, daig pa pwet ng manok sa bilis at tinis ng kanilang pagsasalita at mapapaaga kang bumili ng hearing aid sa edad na 40 to 50 pataas.
13. matagal na kawikaan ko na ito, kapag talagang sawang-sawa na ko sa buhay ko at wala nang patutunguhan ang kinabukasan ko at maging palpak na ang mga pangarap ko, doon ko lang masasabi na sa babae ko na isusuko at mapupunta ang pangalan, pagkatao, ari-arian at iba pang nabibilang sa akin, masasabi ko nang ito na ang huling hantungan ng buhay ko hanggang sa ilibing na sa hukay ang katawang ito...
( ayokong sabihin ang wikang AMEN... mahirap nang magsalita ng tapos, baka magkatotoo, pati ako tapos >_< )
I'm so tired typing, so this is the last session of post for this month, see you on the next issue of post for march
thanks for reading and always enjoy reading issues of my blogs...
------------- STUPID SEGMENT TIME: -------------
"Kesong Puti ng Laguna"
-Theme song of my Boros Deck
-Sung and composed by: J.P. Bisana
-Lyrics not available-
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Monday, February 19, 2007
The Blaze of “Solera Gran Reserva”
Feb. 17, 2007. Saturday -This is one of the greatest happenings around my so-cursed life…
I called it the seasonal “TropangGaius” Night Booze Session sponsored by Mr. Francis “Boogie” Elipse and also myself, which happened at “Boogie’s Haven” where we can talk more about what’s happening behind our backs lately and drink booze all night long until we drop dead coz’ of headache. I spent and shared a few stash to compensate for our foods or we usually called in Filipino word “Pulutan” like Pork Barbeque kebab, some “isaw”, which is the grilled chicken intestine, packed roasted nuts, lots and lots of spicy “sisig”, which composed of ground beef & pork, pork liver and other pork digestive system stuff added with few red hot chili peppers (not the rock-band!!! ‘Dumb-ass’) and my house specialty, the chilled “Kinilaw na isdang Tanigue”, which composed of raw fish soaked in some sprite and vinegar added with some spices like salt, black powdered pepper, garlic, onions, ginger, small & large sizes of chili peppers and let’s not forget the most importantly, the most important and the least significant of them all! The thing we called “GranMa”, which is the short-term for “Gran Matador Brandy”, which is a great quality of local wine in our country and also the chaser, which I chose sprite for a crisp clear taste for chaser.
I came at Francis place about past 5 p.m. as he continued with his online surfing stuff and heavily brought the goods for that night. We prepared the goods for a little time just to settle stuff for that feast and joined his surfing session for a few time while we were waiting for them to arrive and I called Juner’s home and someone on his home answered and said he’s not at home so I texted him if what time he will come.
We were anxiously worried because they were so totally late at the expected time, so, Francis offered me a small dinner around 8 p.m. and I said to him that after I finish this meal I’ll go to the market to buy some grilled foods and an extra bottle of GranMa just to be sure when we get short of booze.
After I came back around before 9 p.m., the leader and the guys didn’t came yet at that time and for a few minutes I stared blankly waiting for the guys to come and I received a text message from Jun saying he’ll be there and he’ll just went home to change attire coz’ he spent some quality time with his wife and I sent a text message to Erik that they’re very late and surprisingly, magic player comrade Jerwin came and I said to Francis that we should prepare the sisig before they came. After I finished cooking the sisig, the half of the guys came with my great chick comrade “The Don” Adonis and I asked Austin “where are the others and the leader?” and he said “they just went to the store near our home to buy some booze for the night” and the whole guys came and gathered around except for one person that we expected to came for the feast
“Mr. John Mark Talavera” >_<
We successfully started the session and at first topic, why “JM” is not around? Austin said he had to do some serious stuff for his so-called “chipsie” but, here’s the thing! He’d done it for the friend of his “chipsie”, which some of us were disappointed at the deed he had done, Erik & Jun quoted that JM never done that before in his entire life and Austin know that already, Francis said that it is such a waste if that relationship will never work out and I said I understand the person and I admit that it is a good strategy that the way to get closer to that person is to catch the girl’s peers influence and many had agreed at that comment but to conclude that, we said that it is too much to become a martyr for that kind of things and I thought about that it is good to give it all he’d got if he had nothing to lose in the 1st place, but if he’d lost a piece of him because of that is the worst thing to do.
To move on, we’ve asked Jerwin about TJ’s story so far and to protect him, I’ll just state this topic “confidential” and I just react for some reason that TJ is more of an icebreaker to us.
To continue, Francis asked me about my disappearance in the past 3 weeks of January and to comply with that, I’ve admitted some faults and hindrances about the guys and (‘darn’ too hard to say…) and I’ll also mark this as a confidential too and (the 3rd topic) for some reason, Francis opened up about his hindrances upon himself and I founded out that we share a lot of common when it comes to the point of view in life that we never fear to die and prepared for it and about romance (oh CRAP!!!), well to suspend the fun, I’ll just respect our beliefs for this kind of topic, so I will tell it again in a different way, it is a “top secret”
As far as I remembered, we talked a lot with Erik, Jun, Phil and Myself for what we have accomplished and aspirations so far as Francis was already dropped dead with Jerwin and Adonis and so far after that Austin & Erik set a man-to-man talk about that girl called “our enemy” and in a few minutes, I was shot down too
For more details and other stuff, just ask for another Night booze session to continue this epic saga of the “Tales of TropangGaius” but that’s all for now so, chow!!! ^_^
------------- QUOTE FOR THIS TOPIC SEGMENT: -------------
“ Simula Ng Init ”
-Gran Matador Brandy
Sponsored by: commercial itself!!! ^_^
------------- NOTED SEGMENT DEDICATED FOR ME: -------------
TropangGaius to J.P. Bisana:
- Bisana!!! Ang Sarap ng Kinilaw Mo!!! ^_^
Emphasized by: Juner Hart Legion
J.P. Bisana to TropangGaius:
- Drink Moderately… ^_^
I called it the seasonal “TropangGaius” Night Booze Session sponsored by Mr. Francis “Boogie” Elipse and also myself, which happened at “Boogie’s Haven” where we can talk more about what’s happening behind our backs lately and drink booze all night long until we drop dead coz’ of headache. I spent and shared a few stash to compensate for our foods or we usually called in Filipino word “Pulutan” like Pork Barbeque kebab, some “isaw”, which is the grilled chicken intestine, packed roasted nuts, lots and lots of spicy “sisig”, which composed of ground beef & pork, pork liver and other pork digestive system stuff added with few red hot chili peppers (not the rock-band!!! ‘Dumb-ass’) and my house specialty, the chilled “Kinilaw na isdang Tanigue”, which composed of raw fish soaked in some sprite and vinegar added with some spices like salt, black powdered pepper, garlic, onions, ginger, small & large sizes of chili peppers and let’s not forget the most importantly, the most important and the least significant of them all! The thing we called “GranMa”, which is the short-term for “Gran Matador Brandy”, which is a great quality of local wine in our country and also the chaser, which I chose sprite for a crisp clear taste for chaser.
I came at Francis place about past 5 p.m. as he continued with his online surfing stuff and heavily brought the goods for that night. We prepared the goods for a little time just to settle stuff for that feast and joined his surfing session for a few time while we were waiting for them to arrive and I called Juner’s home and someone on his home answered and said he’s not at home so I texted him if what time he will come.
We were anxiously worried because they were so totally late at the expected time, so, Francis offered me a small dinner around 8 p.m. and I said to him that after I finish this meal I’ll go to the market to buy some grilled foods and an extra bottle of GranMa just to be sure when we get short of booze.
After I came back around before 9 p.m., the leader and the guys didn’t came yet at that time and for a few minutes I stared blankly waiting for the guys to come and I received a text message from Jun saying he’ll be there and he’ll just went home to change attire coz’ he spent some quality time with his wife and I sent a text message to Erik that they’re very late and surprisingly, magic player comrade Jerwin came and I said to Francis that we should prepare the sisig before they came. After I finished cooking the sisig, the half of the guys came with my great chick comrade “The Don” Adonis and I asked Austin “where are the others and the leader?” and he said “they just went to the store near our home to buy some booze for the night” and the whole guys came and gathered around except for one person that we expected to came for the feast
“Mr. John Mark Talavera” >_<
We successfully started the session and at first topic, why “JM” is not around? Austin said he had to do some serious stuff for his so-called “chipsie” but, here’s the thing! He’d done it for the friend of his “chipsie”, which some of us were disappointed at the deed he had done, Erik & Jun quoted that JM never done that before in his entire life and Austin know that already, Francis said that it is such a waste if that relationship will never work out and I said I understand the person and I admit that it is a good strategy that the way to get closer to that person is to catch the girl’s peers influence and many had agreed at that comment but to conclude that, we said that it is too much to become a martyr for that kind of things and I thought about that it is good to give it all he’d got if he had nothing to lose in the 1st place, but if he’d lost a piece of him because of that is the worst thing to do.
To move on, we’ve asked Jerwin about TJ’s story so far and to protect him, I’ll just state this topic “confidential” and I just react for some reason that TJ is more of an icebreaker to us.
To continue, Francis asked me about my disappearance in the past 3 weeks of January and to comply with that, I’ve admitted some faults and hindrances about the guys and (‘darn’ too hard to say…) and I’ll also mark this as a confidential too and (the 3rd topic) for some reason, Francis opened up about his hindrances upon himself and I founded out that we share a lot of common when it comes to the point of view in life that we never fear to die and prepared for it and about romance (oh CRAP!!!), well to suspend the fun, I’ll just respect our beliefs for this kind of topic, so I will tell it again in a different way, it is a “top secret”
As far as I remembered, we talked a lot with Erik, Jun, Phil and Myself for what we have accomplished and aspirations so far as Francis was already dropped dead with Jerwin and Adonis and so far after that Austin & Erik set a man-to-man talk about that girl called “our enemy” and in a few minutes, I was shot down too
For more details and other stuff, just ask for another Night booze session to continue this epic saga of the “Tales of TropangGaius” but that’s all for now so, chow!!! ^_^
------------- QUOTE FOR THIS TOPIC SEGMENT: -------------
“ Simula Ng Init ”
-Gran Matador Brandy
Sponsored by: commercial itself!!! ^_^
------------- NOTED SEGMENT DEDICATED FOR ME: -------------
TropangGaius to J.P. Bisana:
- Bisana!!! Ang Sarap ng Kinilaw Mo!!! ^_^
Emphasized by: Juner Hart Legion
J.P. Bisana to TropangGaius:
- Drink Moderately… ^_^
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
A Death Note from Panda (The Ego)...
I've confronted and held a meeting with other personas after the tragedy that took place at 13th day and my ego "Panda Pachinko" left a solemn note, a sorrowful sonata, a grave message to the one who called herself "Hana" (a japanese word for flower) which signifies as the blossom of his life and he told me that the stem have stabbed him to death and the petal have slashed him and badly bleeded his so-called "heart" and murdered him with scent of toxic poison. Let me do the honor on the behalf of my ego whom I called the furry friend "Panda", I'll post his Last will...
"My Last Fall"
Let me wake up with this dream…
For it will only haunt a sad memory of you
Let me end this illusion of happiness towards you
For this aspirations will never come true
You brought a meaning to my life
But then, I realized that to feel is to live
And to live in pain caused by your words
Is meaningful rather than no feelings at all
For you, I am nothing but a friend…
A friend that the least person to turned to
You may never need me or want me in this life
But for me, you’re the best I’ve ever had
To speak with you is such a big lie…
But to listen in my heart is the only truth I can tell
Hearing your pure and solemn voice
Heals my shattered and broken wings
Burn all these flowers to a blaze
For it will only leave a scent of sorrow
And these thorns pierce a painful bliss
That marked a memory that I want to miss
My heart and soul belongs to you
Take it wherever you will go
For I don’t need them, nor want them
I’ve decided to stop the time of living beside you
For I have sacrificed a lot just to have you
But in the end, it was never meant to be
I’ve faced the truths and consequences
Hopes, wishes, and desires will say goodbye
I’ve made up my mind and clearly found my way
I’ll never be afraid of keeping a broken friendship
For I will still walk and carry this departed memory
My forever promise of loyalty would still be you
I have to throw away and leave my heart on fire
These emotions is just a suffering that poisons me
So that I will never feel weary and uncertainty
Friendship is the only key towards happy eternity
You know, I'll tell you a story... there was a demon who wandered in the night sky and he saw an beautiful angel with a broken wing, she pleaded to the demon for mercy of her last dying will because she want to survive, the demon break the half of his wings just to make the angel flew back to heaven but the demon wished for a payment of one feather from her other wing, back then the angel flew back into heaven and the demon suffered from death caused of being incomplete and died from poison of kindness and generosity, he spoke his last words saying "the only memory left is the kind feather that came from a beautiful angel and I can rest now by the shot of her words saying Thank you Demon, take care of yourself"
Panda admitted, proved himself, and faced the facts that the only thing that will bring him to death is building a close, mutual, and kind relationship with others (esp. "women") so me, "thirteen" buried him to hell and making a salute to his faith, loyalty, and devotion to his beliefs.Farewell... Panda... someday I'll get you back from hell once you've realized your faults and ignorance.
"My Last Fall"
Let me wake up with this dream…
For it will only haunt a sad memory of you
Let me end this illusion of happiness towards you
For this aspirations will never come true
You brought a meaning to my life
But then, I realized that to feel is to live
And to live in pain caused by your words
Is meaningful rather than no feelings at all
For you, I am nothing but a friend…
A friend that the least person to turned to
You may never need me or want me in this life
But for me, you’re the best I’ve ever had
To speak with you is such a big lie…
But to listen in my heart is the only truth I can tell
Hearing your pure and solemn voice
Heals my shattered and broken wings
Burn all these flowers to a blaze
For it will only leave a scent of sorrow
And these thorns pierce a painful bliss
That marked a memory that I want to miss
My heart and soul belongs to you
Take it wherever you will go
For I don’t need them, nor want them
I’ve decided to stop the time of living beside you
For I have sacrificed a lot just to have you
But in the end, it was never meant to be
I’ve faced the truths and consequences
Hopes, wishes, and desires will say goodbye
I’ve made up my mind and clearly found my way
I’ll never be afraid of keeping a broken friendship
For I will still walk and carry this departed memory
My forever promise of loyalty would still be you
I have to throw away and leave my heart on fire
These emotions is just a suffering that poisons me
So that I will never feel weary and uncertainty
Friendship is the only key towards happy eternity
You know, I'll tell you a story... there was a demon who wandered in the night sky and he saw an beautiful angel with a broken wing, she pleaded to the demon for mercy of her last dying will because she want to survive, the demon break the half of his wings just to make the angel flew back to heaven but the demon wished for a payment of one feather from her other wing, back then the angel flew back into heaven and the demon suffered from death caused of being incomplete and died from poison of kindness and generosity, he spoke his last words saying "the only memory left is the kind feather that came from a beautiful angel and I can rest now by the shot of her words saying Thank you Demon, take care of yourself"
Panda admitted, proved himself, and faced the facts that the only thing that will bring him to death is building a close, mutual, and kind relationship with others (esp. "women") so me, "thirteen" buried him to hell and making a salute to his faith, loyalty, and devotion to his beliefs.Farewell... Panda... someday I'll get you back from hell once you've realized your faults and ignorance.
--STUPID SEGMENT--
Women will kill you in a slowly, sadistic and painful way
that you will feel for the rest of your haunted lives...
Try smoking instead, it taste good, it feels good,
and you'll never know when the poison strikes your life ~_~
Inspired by: Mr. Edwin Pacia
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Tuesday Dinner at the Thirteenth Day...
This is a very tough day, as in very tough and I want to end this day even I don't have any classes or exams at this moment. But still, I can consider this as my Favorite day 'coz Tuesday is my kind of day of the week, I don't know if this day was meant to be a blessing or a curse (frankly... I much like it to be cursed) and I don't want those readers of my blog get disappointed, so, to tell you the truth (you know for us demons the truth really hurts...)
It's not a dream, rather a nightmare... I have to tell you now that I've wanted for so long...
I've woke up this morning which I've only slept for 3 to 5 hours with a sudden sigh, I've prolonged and predicted this day will be unlucky for me, it was already 12:00 noon and I checked up my hideous face at the mirror in the bathroom before I take my bath and I noticed my eyes were very red and exhausted and closed it for a moment and took my bath.
After I finished my bath and get dressed up, I checked what's for lunch and I didn't take it 'coz I don't feel eating at the moment, instead I watched some crappy shows on TV and by watching it absent-mindedly, some Highschool contestant on a game show won a 1.1 million pesos and I guessed it will be a very haunted day for me coz' those were the signs that my day will be a cursed day (tough luck! I say...) and my sister gave me a money to by her some Prepaid cards for her cellphone and for her internet (*tsk* darn!!!) and I've thought about it that it was a pain in the neck following such simple errands like these.
Darn Money! hard to earn but so easy to spend... (*sigh*) when will this world be as equal as should be??? and to continue, I've murdered the power switch of my TV and start reading for a short time on my lectures for my exams tomorrow, just to spend some junk time I noticed I have to leave at 3:00 pm then, I left already and by walking, I sensed something frightfully unlucky and it was phil (tough luck again...) and he have to do some courier stuff again and started talking about cards again and I told him that I've been thinking about quittting my hobby at cards, but on 2nd thought, I've just have to rest for awhile with this card hobby stuff and we parted ways.
This is the worst moment I've been waiting for, Waiting for someone... (*Deep Sigh*) I arrived at 4:00 pm, 2 hours early from the expected time to meet. I felt very cold and chilling outside of their school grounds, so, I sent her a text message twice that I've already arrived and told her that I'll be waiting for her and finally, after a long wait, she came and keeps questioning me where do we go? and hoping it's not that far and i said I'll treat you for a nice dinner and I asked her we have to leave before your mom gets worried about you and we left to the mall for a short dinner.
I asked her where should we eat? she replied "To where you want..." and I have to make a sudden decision but, she unexpectedly noticed her girly close friend way back in high school and for a moment she talked to her for a long time coz' its been awhile that they've met and I've been thinking that she likes cakes for some reason but I prefer for a pizza but the pizza resto' is already full of people and I don't like crowded place for a dinner so, looking at her gave me no other choice and I chose the bakeshop and I asked her that which one do you like? & she said "I don't know, The same that you like I guess" (Darn! I wish I can decide for her Life... *Heavy Sigh*) and as we wait for what we have ordered, we talked a few about what's happening in our lives behind our backs, how's our studies so far, and there! time to eat.
For a very short time, we checked some bargains around the mall with her highschool friend and I feel very uncomfortable for a moment coz' it's very crowded inside the mall and it's near closing time and I told her that it's getting late, i guess we should go home and we left for a walk before we take a fare and here's the horrific moment that I wanted to question her for a very long time and I asked her, it's already valentines, When you will get a good boyfriend huh? and she said, "It's good you asked at this time, I have already have one..." and let the interrogation begins! I asked many details from when did it happened, how'd they met, which school he came from, is that guy good-looking, does her mother know about him and many more (frankfully, I didn't ask for his name coz' I might give him a death note and send his soul to the deepest pit of hell!!!) and I just don't understand her coz' when I started asking her about him, she always insisting to me that she never taking her boyfriend seriously and I thought why do you say such things like that? I'm just an annoying friend of yours... and she already told me and haunting my mind that she has no such feelings for me and we're just friends for the hate of satan!!! (opposite of the quote "for the love fo God") women! they're such a mystery! that's why they're so darn annoying. Anyway, for more details, I insist you do attend our booze session this coming saturday and I'm so darn tired typing and I'll just leave you the lyrics of my theme or rather, my anthem, the 13th track of the 2nd album of My Chemical Romance entitled "Famous Last words" Enjoy.
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to keep on living
It's not a dream, rather a nightmare... I have to tell you now that I've wanted for so long...
I've woke up this morning which I've only slept for 3 to 5 hours with a sudden sigh, I've prolonged and predicted this day will be unlucky for me, it was already 12:00 noon and I checked up my hideous face at the mirror in the bathroom before I take my bath and I noticed my eyes were very red and exhausted and closed it for a moment and took my bath.
After I finished my bath and get dressed up, I checked what's for lunch and I didn't take it 'coz I don't feel eating at the moment, instead I watched some crappy shows on TV and by watching it absent-mindedly, some Highschool contestant on a game show won a 1.1 million pesos and I guessed it will be a very haunted day for me coz' those were the signs that my day will be a cursed day (tough luck! I say...) and my sister gave me a money to by her some Prepaid cards for her cellphone and for her internet (*tsk* darn!!!) and I've thought about it that it was a pain in the neck following such simple errands like these.
Darn Money! hard to earn but so easy to spend... (*sigh*) when will this world be as equal as should be??? and to continue, I've murdered the power switch of my TV and start reading for a short time on my lectures for my exams tomorrow, just to spend some junk time I noticed I have to leave at 3:00 pm then, I left already and by walking, I sensed something frightfully unlucky and it was phil (tough luck again...) and he have to do some courier stuff again and started talking about cards again and I told him that I've been thinking about quittting my hobby at cards, but on 2nd thought, I've just have to rest for awhile with this card hobby stuff and we parted ways.
This is the worst moment I've been waiting for, Waiting for someone... (*Deep Sigh*) I arrived at 4:00 pm, 2 hours early from the expected time to meet. I felt very cold and chilling outside of their school grounds, so, I sent her a text message twice that I've already arrived and told her that I'll be waiting for her and finally, after a long wait, she came and keeps questioning me where do we go? and hoping it's not that far and i said I'll treat you for a nice dinner and I asked her we have to leave before your mom gets worried about you and we left to the mall for a short dinner.
I asked her where should we eat? she replied "To where you want..." and I have to make a sudden decision but, she unexpectedly noticed her girly close friend way back in high school and for a moment she talked to her for a long time coz' its been awhile that they've met and I've been thinking that she likes cakes for some reason but I prefer for a pizza but the pizza resto' is already full of people and I don't like crowded place for a dinner so, looking at her gave me no other choice and I chose the bakeshop and I asked her that which one do you like? & she said "I don't know, The same that you like I guess" (Darn! I wish I can decide for her Life... *Heavy Sigh*) and as we wait for what we have ordered, we talked a few about what's happening in our lives behind our backs, how's our studies so far, and there! time to eat.
For a very short time, we checked some bargains around the mall with her highschool friend and I feel very uncomfortable for a moment coz' it's very crowded inside the mall and it's near closing time and I told her that it's getting late, i guess we should go home and we left for a walk before we take a fare and here's the horrific moment that I wanted to question her for a very long time and I asked her, it's already valentines, When you will get a good boyfriend huh? and she said, "It's good you asked at this time, I have already have one..." and let the interrogation begins! I asked many details from when did it happened, how'd they met, which school he came from, is that guy good-looking, does her mother know about him and many more (frankfully, I didn't ask for his name coz' I might give him a death note and send his soul to the deepest pit of hell!!!) and I just don't understand her coz' when I started asking her about him, she always insisting to me that she never taking her boyfriend seriously and I thought why do you say such things like that? I'm just an annoying friend of yours... and she already told me and haunting my mind that she has no such feelings for me and we're just friends for the hate of satan!!! (opposite of the quote "for the love fo God") women! they're such a mystery! that's why they're so darn annoying. Anyway, for more details, I insist you do attend our booze session this coming saturday and I'm so darn tired typing and I'll just leave you the lyrics of my theme or rather, my anthem, the 13th track of the 2nd album of My Chemical Romance entitled "Famous Last words" Enjoy.
Famous Last Words
By: My Chemical Romance
Now I know That I can’t make you stay
But where’s your heart
But where’s your heart
But where’s your...
And I know
There’s nothing I can say
To change that part
To change that part
To change!
So many Bright lights that cast a shadow
But can I speak? Well is it hard understanding
I’m incomplete A life that’s so demanding I get so weak
A love that's so demanding I can’t speak
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay You'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
Can you see My eyes are shining bright
Cause I’m out here On the other side Of a jet black Hotel mirror
And I’m so weak is it hard understanding I’m incomplete
A love that's so demanding I get weak
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay You'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay You'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
These bright lights have always blinded me
These bright lights have always blinded me I say...
I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I’d never speak Awake and unafraid Asleep or dead
Cause I see you lying next to me
Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I’d never speak Awake and unafraid Asleep or dead
Cause I see you lying next to me
Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I’d never speak Awake and unafraid Asleep or dead
Cause I see you lying next to me
Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I’d never speak Awake and unafraid Asleep or dead
(Repeated in background x6) Or, deeeeaaaad....
(Repeated in background x6) Or, deeeeaaaad....
(foreground)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay You'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay You'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay You'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home.
Lyrics Provided by: metrolyrics.com
--STUPID WORDS OF WISDOM FOR THE DAY:--
"If Only Nightmares Will Haunt me, Then I'll shall never Sleep ever again..."
Saturday, February 10, 2007
The Persecutor, The Rescuer, and The Victim...
Well, so far I've accomplished my first midterm exam in this past week and four more exams to go and It's still on my mind what I've answered in my exam in one of my major subjects entitled "Counseling Theories & Techniques" and the title of this post was adopted from one of the topics in my lessons so far. I guess this topic is very interesting because I'll mention who is this three people really are (persecutor, rescuer, and the victim)
First, The story about the "Persecutor"
I'll mention the 3 evil proponents in we have so-called "Tropang_Gaius" and I've decided we call ourselves the "Demonic Trinity" and that 3 persons so far are Francis a.k.a. "Boogie", Austin "our apprentice", and Myself "The Psycho". Even boogie said to me that all of us in Tropang Gaius's are actually demons, and I agree with him but I think some of them are shown in a subtle way and I said to him that they need to be trained and influenced and our first experiment is Austin, and then *poof* he became our apprentice and that's it! the trinity have been gathered and completed.
But we have found our new pet to be processed... (To be Continued)
So, maybe you'll have now the idea of who are called "Persecutor"...
Second, The story about the "Rescuer"
How can I put this up? I can't come up wih an idea of whose gonna be called "Rescuer" so I'll just give a good story of Heroism and being a savior that I will never forget, I remembered 2nd sem. of my 2nd year of term in psychology, it is the day when suddenly I've been broke for the first time and I have no more money left in my stash and about that time I have nowhere to go, so far no close friends around have shown, until... I have met this familiar person and we're not yet that familiar with each other and I didn't consider him yet as a close friend at that time and I asked him:
Myself: Dude! Do you have a spare money left? 'coz I have no more money left for the fare on going home and I can't go home walking at night in the streets like a beggar or a rugby boy
Rescuer: Sure! I'll lend some of my money for your fare...
Myself: Thanks Dude! I really owe you a lot!!! 'coz I'll never be able to come home without you around. I promise I'll pay you back tomorrow...
Rescuer: No need to bother man!!! Don't pay me back, Consider it free OK?
Myself: (*Enlightened* This Man is such a Saint!!! He'll surely be blessed by my enemy above)
You know... Every Demon Hates their blessings, coz' there will be worst consequences in the end
As for that time, the man whom I called the "Rescuer" is none other than Mr. Juner Hart Legion
and he is one of the great men in the book of life of St. Peter's Chronicles (which My name in that book doesn't exist and will be exiled in hell...)
Third and the last, The "Victim"
I'll tell you guys very shortly, last season of "TropangGaius" annual feb. fair undisputed winner of being "Valentines SCREWED" was Mr. Francis "Boogie" Elipse, which is the former founder of group called "KBB" (Kapisanan ng Bagong Boogie) along with his date which I'll never mention for the privacy of boogie's archives of his cursed past. why being screwed? b'coz he's the only person in the group that has a date on that day ^_^ well, the crowning glory of this year 2007 "TropangGaius" annual feb. fair award of "Valentines SCREWED" is Mr. Erik "Gaius" Capistrano our Leader and founder of our group "TropangGaius" (why is it the profounded leading personalities have to be always screwed??? -_- ) along with his bestfriend, but this time... we're not behind his back to check up on him (unlike in boogie's situation last season) and the best part of that is our leader, Gaius, can do many things around with no worries of embarassment from us coz' they can spend more time with each other alone!!! ^_^
The one that I'll be calling the "Victim" are all of us, because here's the famous last words of wisdom that I will tell you:
"We're all victims of Unexpected events of time, the best thing to do is giving your best in choosing certain decisions and solving unwanted consequences towards unconditioned life"
STUPID SEGMENT:
--Boogie says: "[word]_Sh*t!" (e.g. Iron Sh*t!) & I say: "[word]_Sucks!" (e.g. Luv_sucks!)--
First, The story about the "Persecutor"
I'll mention the 3 evil proponents in we have so-called "Tropang_Gaius" and I've decided we call ourselves the "Demonic Trinity" and that 3 persons so far are Francis a.k.a. "Boogie", Austin "our apprentice", and Myself "The Psycho". Even boogie said to me that all of us in Tropang Gaius's are actually demons, and I agree with him but I think some of them are shown in a subtle way and I said to him that they need to be trained and influenced and our first experiment is Austin, and then *poof* he became our apprentice and that's it! the trinity have been gathered and completed.
But we have found our new pet to be processed... (To be Continued)
So, maybe you'll have now the idea of who are called "Persecutor"...
Second, The story about the "Rescuer"
How can I put this up? I can't come up wih an idea of whose gonna be called "Rescuer" so I'll just give a good story of Heroism and being a savior that I will never forget, I remembered 2nd sem. of my 2nd year of term in psychology, it is the day when suddenly I've been broke for the first time and I have no more money left in my stash and about that time I have nowhere to go, so far no close friends around have shown, until... I have met this familiar person and we're not yet that familiar with each other and I didn't consider him yet as a close friend at that time and I asked him:
Myself: Dude! Do you have a spare money left? 'coz I have no more money left for the fare on going home and I can't go home walking at night in the streets like a beggar or a rugby boy
Rescuer: Sure! I'll lend some of my money for your fare...
Myself: Thanks Dude! I really owe you a lot!!! 'coz I'll never be able to come home without you around. I promise I'll pay you back tomorrow...
Rescuer: No need to bother man!!! Don't pay me back, Consider it free OK?
Myself: (*Enlightened* This Man is such a Saint!!! He'll surely be blessed by my enemy above)
You know... Every Demon Hates their blessings, coz' there will be worst consequences in the end
As for that time, the man whom I called the "Rescuer" is none other than Mr. Juner Hart Legion
and he is one of the great men in the book of life of St. Peter's Chronicles (which My name in that book doesn't exist and will be exiled in hell...)
Third and the last, The "Victim"
I'll tell you guys very shortly, last season of "TropangGaius" annual feb. fair undisputed winner of being "Valentines SCREWED" was Mr. Francis "Boogie" Elipse, which is the former founder of group called "KBB" (Kapisanan ng Bagong Boogie) along with his date which I'll never mention for the privacy of boogie's archives of his cursed past. why being screwed? b'coz he's the only person in the group that has a date on that day ^_^ well, the crowning glory of this year 2007 "TropangGaius" annual feb. fair award of "Valentines SCREWED" is Mr. Erik "Gaius" Capistrano our Leader and founder of our group "TropangGaius" (why is it the profounded leading personalities have to be always screwed??? -_- ) along with his bestfriend, but this time... we're not behind his back to check up on him (unlike in boogie's situation last season) and the best part of that is our leader, Gaius, can do many things around with no worries of embarassment from us coz' they can spend more time with each other alone!!! ^_^
The one that I'll be calling the "Victim" are all of us, because here's the famous last words of wisdom that I will tell you:
"We're all victims of Unexpected events of time, the best thing to do is giving your best in choosing certain decisions and solving unwanted consequences towards unconditioned life"
STUPID SEGMENT:
--Boogie says: "[word]
Monday, February 5, 2007
The Clouded Judgment and The Solemn Confusion
It is a very exhausting days that are coming in the terms of events around my so-cursed life... role playing as a woman, having tons of paperworks and reporting in my studies, compiled midterm exams that will come, and the undecided fate that will cross on the day of judgment, will I, myself, survive in the upcoming event? the so-called "TropangGaius" annual Feb. Fair?
Will I have the power to convince and persuade the marvelous flower? Or...
Will I fall down, stumble, condemned, falter and end up carrying on alone?
Well, I really have to confirm about the task and appointments of the one that I've invited so far and actually, I've just passed by here in my blog and I'm really surprised when I founded out that my good friend, "Juner" successfully created a blog of his own (cheers!!!). I'm supposed to comply with my research task for tomorrow at my social psych. subject and just a less than a minute spend, I finished it already and here I am now typing to post something new for this "Black Blog" of mine.
Hmm... what can I say more, it's a really sudden notice to her that I invited her for this kind of event and it's the same old story, she's slightly uncertain about it and I'm a Demon, the truth hurts that I'm a pessimistic person and ending up thinking the worst ideas and happenings that might come up with like thinking she's not really interested and just want to get along with me.
Well, that's life to deal with... *CRAP!!!*, and hopefully she may reconsider my wish for that moment to spend with her, and For me, It's not a "Date", perse, It's just a friendly get together hang-out with her 'cause "Romance is a crappy stuff to deal with" and "Mushy stuff SUCKS!" and "LOVE" is forbidden and forsaken thing for a Demon like me!!! It's really not my style or my kind of lifestyle to deal with when it comes to this Valentines Crappy Day! *DAMN IT!*
Well guys, I'm out of words now... So, I'll just leave you a lyric of an "Emo-punk" song from ChicoSci called "Seven Black Roses". In the mean time, Enjoy your "Cursed Crappy Life"
Seven Black Roses
by: ChicoSci
When I leave, I wanna wait for the silence
You gave me all you've got, But now I stand here waving at you
And still you smile, you're still looking back
Maybe I just wasnt kind enough
Im fighting urges to fall again, Yet I stumble, Yet I stumble
Chorus:
These roses died 3 days since Black roses died, we said goodbye
These roses died 3 days since Im sorry, I miss you...
How do I remain complete, When all we bled is lost?
We couldve burned the earth and sky
A second chance chance, The seconds spent
Each others shadow, should've known
I'm fighting urges to fall again, Yet I stumble, Yet I stumble
(Repeat Chorus)
Here this Im yours Im at your feet...
(Repeat Chorus)
Inside this heart you still remain, But faded letters are erased...
Lyrics provided by: Trisancafe.com ("ang online tambayan ng mga sira ang ulo")
Will I have the power to convince and persuade the marvelous flower? Or...
Will I fall down, stumble, condemned, falter and end up carrying on alone?
Well, I really have to confirm about the task and appointments of the one that I've invited so far and actually, I've just passed by here in my blog and I'm really surprised when I founded out that my good friend, "Juner" successfully created a blog of his own (cheers!!!). I'm supposed to comply with my research task for tomorrow at my social psych. subject and just a less than a minute spend, I finished it already and here I am now typing to post something new for this "Black Blog" of mine.
Hmm... what can I say more, it's a really sudden notice to her that I invited her for this kind of event and it's the same old story, she's slightly uncertain about it and I'm a Demon, the truth hurts that I'm a pessimistic person and ending up thinking the worst ideas and happenings that might come up with like thinking she's not really interested and just want to get along with me.
Well, that's life to deal with... *CRAP!!!*, and hopefully she may reconsider my wish for that moment to spend with her, and For me, It's not a "Date", perse, It's just a friendly get together hang-out with her 'cause "Romance is a crappy stuff to deal with" and "Mushy stuff SUCKS!" and "LOVE" is forbidden and forsaken thing for a Demon like me!!! It's really not my style or my kind of lifestyle to deal with when it comes to this Valentines Crappy Day! *DAMN IT!*
Well guys, I'm out of words now... So, I'll just leave you a lyric of an "Emo-punk" song from ChicoSci called "Seven Black Roses". In the mean time, Enjoy your "Cursed Crappy Life"
Seven Black Roses
by: ChicoSci
When I leave, I wanna wait for the silence
You gave me all you've got, But now I stand here waving at you
And still you smile, you're still looking back
Maybe I just wasnt kind enough
Im fighting urges to fall again, Yet I stumble, Yet I stumble
Chorus:
These roses died 3 days since Black roses died, we said goodbye
These roses died 3 days since Im sorry, I miss you...
How do I remain complete, When all we bled is lost?
We couldve burned the earth and sky
A second chance chance, The seconds spent
Each others shadow, should've known
I'm fighting urges to fall again, Yet I stumble, Yet I stumble
(Repeat Chorus)
Here this Im yours Im at your feet...
(Repeat Chorus)
Inside this heart you still remain, But faded letters are erased...
Lyrics provided by: Trisancafe.com ("ang online tambayan ng mga sira ang ulo")
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